I’m lonely, but I bring it on myself

I’m locked away inside my head

I can’t get out no matter how I try

I guess I’ll be here til I die.

My thoughts are what consume me

I’m confused by my reality

I don’t know what’s right or wrong

And I feel like I just barely get along.

No matter in the darkness

Or in the brightest day

I’m just stumbing over boulders

That are always in my way

They aren’t friends or enemies

They help to keep me strong

Or maybe they’re just decorations

For the journey I am on

It’s a lonely world when you try to

Do it by yourself

But I’ve never learned the art

Of being someone else

A lot of hidden pain and fear

But I chew my lip and hide my tears

Stay up late, drag out of bed

Keep all this stuff trapped in my head

I’ve been walking my whole life

But never gotten anywhere

I’ve fought the biggest fight

But my fists just beat the air

Yeah, I’ve done a lot of things

But I don’t know what I’m doing

I feel cheated out of time

It’s all been so confusing

People think I have my life together

They say I’m creative and very smart

But my brain goes 90 miles an hour

And daggers shoot through my heart

I walk through life completely shattered

From a tragic point of view

And often wonder why God chose me

To deal these cards to

But I know He hasn’t forgotten me

Because I see Him everywhere

When my mind is most chaotic

I feel His presence and know He’s there

What could bring my greatest sorrows

Can hold my greatest joys too

Because knowing that He’s with me

Is more than enough to get through.

Still…

A lot of hidden pain and fear

But I chew my lip and hide my tears

Stay up late, drag out of bed

Keep all this stuff trapped in my head

Allison