Things I Don’t Say

Sometimes it hits you like a freight train running through your heart

Other times it sneaks up like a cat in the dark

And I don’t know which is worse, but I always find myself alone

Holding on to the ground I thought I was standing on

No one ever comes to save me here

Even though Jesus will one day take my tears

But as I look up I know  I have to stand

And there’s never anyone holding out a hand. 

I get advice, don’t get me wrong 

People tell me how I should have been

But no one really has an answer for

Being heart broken again

I used to try to gather pieces

Now I let them all lie

And I just remake myself 

With the parts that didn’t die 

Staring at the emptiness 

And trying to be free

To lead all the ones I love 

Out of a hole too deep for me

No one understands or really cares

They have their lives and think I’m insane

But when I’m looking to see no one there

The reality is only I remember my name. 

I don’t want sympathy at this point I’ve now come to

I’m sorry but I wouldn’t ask a thing of you

I won’t creep about as if my presence is an insult to your ears

But I’ll go on crashing badly with no one who cares to hear. 

Maybe we all feel this way or maybe it’s just me

I want to be bound by love but I long to be set free

I’m staring at the wilderness that I once thought was green

Knowing I should keep this one because you won’t know what I mean. 

Allison Divine

April 2,2026