Life explained through the lense of madness The silence I live in since I found my child dead isn’t silent at all but is made up of voices from my childhood, talking incessantly and laughing as they clink their wine glasses together and scrape their forks across china plates. Noise I can’t explain is now…
Category: RECOVERY
Divorce Stole My Ability to Write
And left a list of things I no longer have. The stress of divorce and not knowing how I’ll pay my bills has taken away my voice. Or in this case, my words. My mind draws a blank when usually I can’t get to the laptop fast enough to get it all down before my…
Live Your Life or Plan Your Death
About depression and a pet cricket named Elvis When I was a kid, I had a pet cricket named Elvis. Mama said you can’t really have a cricket for a pet. The truth is, I never saw him once, but Elvis sang to me every night, so I reckon he decided to keep me instead…
The Reckless Glorification of the Good Ole Boy Mentality
It’s a killer concept. I’m not known for the popularity of my views. I’m also not one to keep quiet when I have something significant to say. The difference is, I’m writing this strictly for myself. I understand that my words may not be well received by a certain group of people, particularly a subculture…
I Don’t Know How to Do Any of This Stuff
I’m just over here stumbling my way through life. This probably isn’t even a surprise to anyone who knows me. If you look at my track record, you can tell I’m not getting anywhere fast. Not really. I’ll tell you something else. I’m directionally challenged. Let me explain. I can walk into a place (for…
Six Simple Truths About Grief
I talk a lot about grief and recovery. I probably always will. My son was 16 when I found him dead on the couch one October morning. You can’t go through that unscathed. You don’t ever get to a place where you stop talking about it. Love always comes with the risk of loss. Death…
Let The Good Times Roll
Things happen. Things that are unfair happen, and you end up in places you never intended to go. What do you do about it? Well, you can try to reason it out and get back on track. The problem is you don’t always know exactly where you veered off course. Things looked all right! Actually,…
Side Effects of Tremendous Loss
Grief sucks. I’m going to go over a little bit of what happens when you have to say goodbye forever to someone you love. First, a bit of context. Shock. I lost my kid. Well, I didn’t exactly lose him. Horror. I know where he is. I hardly ever go there. There’s something disturbing about…
Hell In A Handbasket
That’s where the whole world is headed. I was standing in my bathtub hanging curtains that didn’t quite match my newly painted walls when I realized I’m scared. Don’t try to reason that out. It is what it is. I don’t know what’s wrong with people today, but I know for sure something is. It’s…
How do you handle life when everything goes wrong?
Sometimes I wonder if it’s even worth getting out of bed. Two flat tires. That’s how my day started. I was driving to work on these fantastic Louisiana roads, and the best I can tell, I went in a pothole. I’m not sure why it took out two of my tires on the sidewalls, but…
Pink Hair and Pajama Bottoms 